Anyone who says sunshine brings happiness has never danced in the rain

I’ve always loved the rain, to me, the rain symbolizes new beginnings, sadness, happiness, relief, destruction, hope - Life.

As I child, I often used to sneak out of the house to play in the rain. Oh what joy it is to dance in the rain,one of the simple pleasures of life.

As I grew older the rain started to symbolize so much more, not just fun, but a time to introspect, to lie in bed under a blanket, sipping hot cocoa while the rain pelted away at the windows and just watch. Such a lovely feeling and what a lovely smell. It always made me feel grateful and content.

During my first year at college, i clearly remember the first time it rained, my friends and I ran out in the rain and got soaked. Let it suffice to say, that we could not attend any further classes for the day and I was sick for the next two days, but it was great fun.

Strangely enough, in my life the rain has always been my companion when I was sad or depressed. When I broke up with my first boyfriend as I walked away, I was glad it was raining so no one could see I was crying. And as the rain washed away my tears I was glad that I had finally gotten myself out of a destructive relationship which had made me miserable.

When I got my first job and moved to Mumbai, I was excited and impatient waiting for the rains as I had heard so much about them. Early one morning while I waited with my dad for my company bus to pick me up, all of a sudden it began to rain. As I heroically pulled out my huge umbrella, my dad watched in amusement. In 5 seconds my umbrella had been rendered totally useless by the wind. And however hard I tried, I just could not fathom how to hold it to prevent it from turning in the opposite direction. As I soon learnt, there is a technique to hold an umbrella in the rain. My dad was laughing so hard at my bemused expression that he was having difficulty giving directions. Finally, he just held my hand and tilted it so that the umbrella was pointing in the direction opposite to the direction of the wind and lo and behold my umbrella was fine. In the process we both got wet and laughed like crazy, but its one of my happiest memories of the rain.


A few months later, when I got the news that I had lost my father, as I wept in despair the skies joined me. It rained continuously for three days, from the day I got the news till the funeral was over. And as I sat in my ancestral house in kerala surrounded by hundreds of relatives who were searching for the right things to say, I kept looking out of the window at the rain and the comfort I felt just looking at the rain was so much more than listening to anything anyone had to say. Just hearing the rhythmic pitter patter and watching the droplets of rain fall to the ground and become one , made me feel in a strange way that maybe each of the tiny droplets joined together for a certain reason, maybe there was a purpose to everything after all. And as I looked out, at the dark green leaves and the red earth, I could see my father standing in the rain and smiling at me, with a look which said , don’t cry, I didn’t teach you to be strong for nothing. And suddenly I felt a sense of peace knowing that I would always be able to see my father in the rain.

The Search

Have you ever felt so alone...so completely alone...like you are the only one...

Loneliness is not about not having people around you... its about sitting in a room full of people and feeling like you don't belong...like you can talk but you don't know the language....alien words which have no meaning...

I look around... the room is crowded...i say something... but everyone ignores me....i try again...then i scream, but no one can hear me.... the silence envelopes me and threatens to drown me... i gasp and shake my head...my head throbs..i feel like its going to explode...my ears are ringing...i scream again.. but no one hears me... no one at all...

I have a million questions but no answers...a million thoughts and conflicts but no solutions...a million pens but no paper...a million wishes but no fairy god mother...a million dreams but no idea how to make them come true...

When will i find that some one... the one who knows when i'm calling..the one who knows when i'm hurting...the one who feels my pain...the one who knows when to hold my hand... the one who understands me... the one who makes me feel safe...the one who will make all this go away...

Will i ever feel complete... will i ever stop looking for that face...will i ever find my soulmate...

Am i the only one who was made in this mould...does the other half exist... is it a figment of my imagination...

Will i know when i meet that someone... will i know that i need to look no further...or will i continue to search for the impossible...will this remain an eternal search for the non-existent...

Dad

He always made me smile,
He always had his own style,
Helped me take my first step,
Was there to hold me when I leapt,
Held my hand when I nearly fell,
Carried me when I wasn’t well,

Laughed with me when I lost my teeth,
Threatened to box my ears when I wasn't sweet,
Made fun of me, when I acted silly,
Bought me a dog named, Milly,

Was anxious when I came home late,
Scolded me, when I broke a plate,
Taught me how to swim,
Bought me presents on a whim,
Worried when I wasn't well,
Waited at my school till the bell,

Taught me right from wrong,
Taught me how to be strong,
Made an attempt to teach me math,
Decided to leave it at that,

Picked me up when I fell down,
Taught me how to trudge along,
Listened to me when I talked,
Was very troubled when I got stalked,
Took care of me when I was weak,
Gave me hope when I thought things looked bleak,

Wondered whether I had a phone attached to my ear,
Was quite sure that I couldn’t hear,
Looked concerned when someone broke my heart,
Offered to take him apart,

Gave me a gentle nudge so I would explore,
Told me that there were special things in store,
Smiled when I tried to sing,
Gave me courage to face new things,
Comforted me when I was sad,
And protected me from all that’s bad,
Soothed all my fears,
And wiped my tears,
Bought me lots of books to read,
Was kind to me in every deed,

Danced with me when I had two left feet,
Taught me how to handle defeat,
Held my hand when I was in pain,
Taught me how to hold an umbrella in the rain,
Was proud of me when I got my first job,
Taught me how to eat corn on the cob,

Encouraged me when I tried my wings,
Told me all what life has to bring,
Talked to me about everything under the sun,
Made me feel like the party had just begun,

I wish he didn't have to go away,
I know a part of me died that day,
And life will never be the same,
Somehow everything seems so lame.

-Poppy.

Dedicated in the memory of my father, who taught me so much and whom I miss more and more with each passing day….

Love this Song ! :-)

Faraway -Nickelback

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing
if I don't see you anymore
On my knees I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you,
I'd withstand All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything
but I won't give up
'Cause you know, you know, you know
[CHORUS]
So far away
Been far away
for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and,
never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and,
never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and,
never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and,
never let me go