Good Bye

I was pre-occupied, half asleep,
It too me a while to discover, I was in too deep,
I never planned it, for me it was a fall,
It's a painful way down, to nothing at all,

I’ve lost count of the times that I’ve given up on you,
And all the promises you made to get me back to you,
So I put my keys in the car, but it wouldn’t drive,
I sat with my hands on the wheel, looking barely alive,
I know I’m not an angel, but don't think that I won't try,
I know I'm not an angel, but that doesn’t mean that I won't fly,

For Freedom comes when you learn to let go,
Happiness comes to those who learn to say no,
You were my lesson, I had to learn,
I touched fire, I had to burn,

For every mistake, I’ll have to pay,
I’ve come to work, I’ve come to play,
Now I need to find another way,
I’ve had the courage to break away,
I’ve learnt how to say goodbye,
Now I yearn to say goodbye!

-Inspiration from assorted song lyrics

Realisation

Here I go again,
I see the crystal visions,
I keep my visions to myself,
Have you any dreams you'd like to sell?
Dreams of loneliness,
Like a heartbeat...drives you mad,
In the stillness of remembering what you had,
And what you lost,
Thunder only happens when it's raining,
Players only love you when they're playing,
Say women they will come and they will go,
When the rain washes you clean, you'll know !

-Lyrics from "Dreams"- The Corrs

Wicked Games

A fleeting glance,
A brave stance,
A wicked thought,
A half smile caught,
A last chance,
For one last dance,
A Promise to withstand,
All of hell to hold my hand,
Well, too long, too late,
Another lifetime you’ll have to wait!

Memories

I watch the sky turn black to blush,
Head still spinning from the rush,
Of all the things I’ve done,
And I take it with me when I leave,
The crowded skyline,
The sleepless city always leaves its mark,
Just close my eyes and I'm back again,
These dawn-lit streets begin to fill ,
With memories of you and I
On a New York City night!

-Paraphrased from "New York City" by Paul Van Dyk

Sadness

Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad.

-Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Achieving the Impossible

In order to attain the impossible, one must attempt the absurd.

-Miguel De Cervantes Saavedra

Madness

You're only given a little spark of madness. You mustn't lose it !

-Robin Williams

Witches ! :-p

A dangerous woman is one who has no women friends. It is easy to fool men, it is much tougher to fool women!

Identity Crisis

I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn,
I'm the only one who's noticed,
I can't be the only one who's learned,
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do,
Or who I'm supposed to be,
I don't want to be anything other than me !

-paraphrased from "One Tree Hill" Theme Song

Passing Phase

I'm not afraid of anything in this world,
There's nothing you can throw at me,
That I haven't already heard,
And if the night runs over,
And if the day won't last,
And if your way should falter,
Along this stony pass,
It's just a moment,
This time will pass !

-Paraphrased from lyrics of "Stuck in a moment"

Music & Dance

To me music provides a path or a means to connect with others and to better understand myself. Music helps me unwind and find a sense of peace when I'm troubled, it cheers me up when I'm sad,comforts me when I feel lost and last but not least celebrates with me when I'm happy. To me music expresses that which cannot be put into words but at the same time cannot be held inside.

I listen to a wide variety of music from country music to trance. I enjoy listening to music which has good lyrics but I also like music in foreign languages, which I don't understand but where the beat and the musical instruments are so beautiful that I'm able to enjoy the music, as much as I would, if I could understand the words !

For me music and dance go hand in hand. I love to dance and completely let myself go when I go dancing and then for a short time I'm transported to an imaginary world where everything is different. Dancing helps me let go of my inhibitions and makes me feel at one with the universe atleast for a short period of time.

I know for sure that without music and dance I would die! To me stopping the flow of music would be like stopping life itself, totally and utterly insane and inconceivable ! For music and rhythm are always able to find the secret path to ones soul !

Some things I will Never Understand

During our childhood we are brought up to believe that we can do anything we want, be anyone we want, go anywhere we want and achieve anything we want. We grow up as strong confident human beings only to find that weak people always get their way. It’s sad that the only way to get your way with other people is to display your weaknesses. It sickens me to think that weak people always get their way by playing the sympathy card and those of us who conduct ourselves with dignity are the losers in the end. We are called heartless, villains and other such choice words only because we intimidate other people, especially men.

Men like weak women; it makes them feel strong maybe even macho. Why can’t they feel the same about strong women? It’s not that we don’t need to be taken care of, it’s just that we don’t feel the need to act like blubbering blithering idiots and sob hysterically at the first sign of a problem. Does that make us too tough for men to handle? Does it scare them?

I once made the mistake of asking a man why he was sympathetic to such a woman and he had the audacity to tell me that she was sensitive??!! Really?! I mean does that imply that the rest of us have no feelings, just because we don’t believe in making fools of ourselves in public. What a huge price to pay for being strong!

What we need is strong men who are proud of the women in their lives, be it their mothers, sisters, girl friends or wives. Not fools who want weak pathetic women in their lives just so that they can feel adequate!

I hope some things will change in future !

I wish all you beautiful, strong women out there a very Happy Women’s Day!

Love

Love sought is good, but given unsought, is better.

-William Shakespeare

Who am I ?

I'm the darkness in the light,
I'm the left ness in the right,
I'm the sadness in the joy,
I'm the will you'll not destroy,
I'm the beauty in the beast,
I'm the sunset in the east,
I'm the world you'll never see,
I'm the slave you'll never free,
I'm the why not in the why,
I'm the spirit in the sky,
I'm the catcher in the rye,
I'm the twinkle in ur eye,
Who am I ???!!!

-Paraphrased from "Gin Soaked Boy"

Inconsistency

Sigh no more,
Ladies, sigh no more,
Men were deceivers ever,
One foot in the sea and one on shore,
To one thing constant never.

-William Shakespeare

Revenge

What restrains me from revenge is partly moral scruple, partly the view that no man should be punished when he is willingly torturing himself, and partly what may be described as a sense of humour!

If Everyone Cared

If everyone cared and nobody cried,
If everyone loved and nobody lied,
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride,
Then we'd see the day when nobody died.

-"If Everyone Cared" by Nickelback

Complacence

All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing.

-Edmund Burke

Winds of Change

The world is closing in,
Did you ever think,
That we could be so close,
The future's in the air,
I can feel it everywhere,
Blowing with the winds of change,
Walking down the street,
Distant memories,
Are buried in the past forever,
I follow my own dreams,
Listening to the winds of change

-Paraphrased from Winds of Change by the Scorpions

Thought for the day !

Friends are God's way of apologising to us for the other morons that we have to meet along the way !

A Man of Substance

The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.

-Martin Luther King, Jr.

Comfort

I know there is strength in the differences between us, I know there is comfort where we overlap.

-Ani Difranco